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In this episode we talk about the role of alcohol in our lives. Whether we drink or are sober, stories about alcohol impact all our lives. Our intention here was to have a landing space to talk about these stories, some joyful, some funny and some sad. We had a lot of help from our friends in unpacking this topic, listening to each other and coming together to feel the उतारचढाव that often accompanies the journey when talking about alcohol. Listen with your loved ones and tell us how it felt and let's continue this conversation

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सिकाईको अनुभव/अनुभवको सिकाई
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Archiving as a pleasure practice
Ep. 24
Archiving as a pleasure practice

Continue the gentle roller coaster ride with Fareed and raji in the second half of their conversation as they talk about their pleasure explorations, non-normative rhythms and the mixed bag of emotions that comes along with creating archives of their own experiences of pleasure, inspiration and joy. They converse about what archiving pleasure and inspiration stories mean to Utar Chadhav and its many possibilities. They laugh, reminisce and of course talk about movies! —-- This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space for your auditory pleasure.

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May 15, 2025

Cool कि अनुकूल
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The route/root to our magnetism
Ep. 23
The route/root to our magnetism

Come join this gentle roller coaster ride along with fareed and raji as they talk about pleasure and liberation, community and inspiration. They bring in stories from their lives, touching upon intimacy, vulnerability, and how the movies factor into all of this [there's a not-so-secret watch list in their chat! Has a movie stayed with you so long that it inspires you?]. Fareed and raji celebrate and struggle with the stories about pleasure expressed in places like the movies that shape how they feel joy, how they feel safe, how they connect with themselves and others, and how they find the root (or is it the route?) to their magnetism. —-- This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space for your auditory pleasure.

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Inspirationको फण्डा
Ep. 22
Inspirationको फण्डा

Has this hot weather, humidity and rainy season got you feeling static? Fret not, you are not alone in this feeling. The unpredictable weather and even more uncertain world scenario has us feeling down too. In these trying times, words of inspiration and little pockets of joy mean so much, don’t they? Luckily, we have just the thing for you! We have recently had the privilege of hosting conversation with little bursts of inspirations who inspired us with their sometimes deep, sometimes random, and sometimes uniquely wise words. Talking to Prabodhi and Sadish has helped us make space for young voices to talk​​ about what gives them pleasure, joy, and inspiration to move about and how they experience life. This reflection has also inspired us to listen to not just the youngsters around us but also the inner child within us. Sit back, tune in and invite the child within you to ponder upon the simpler things of life and watch as the magic unfolds~ #innerchild #favouritethings #utarchadhav #mentalhealthmatters -- This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space for your auditory pleasure.

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Jab We Met
Ep. 21
Jab We Met

eric and raji met in the summer of 2009 at a party. For raji meeting eric changed the course of their life. eric brought an intentionality that raji always craved for. They started having candid conversations about pleasure and desire. Last year raji asked eric if he would want to record a conversation about pleasure and inspiration the next time they met. And so in May of 2025, they went camping and recorded this conversation over the course of two days. What does infusing joy and intentionality in our day to day lives, in our relationships look like? What does the journey look like and what does looking back at our younger selves, teach us and/or remind us about what we have always valued? How do we discern purpose that is imposed on us vs. purpose that grows from learning from experiences and influences we are open to? Here’s to the joys of loitering and time traveling! Let us know where this conversation transports you in your own journey. Listen with a friend, and engage with these questions: Who taught you how to have fun? What is your pleasure lineage? (borrowed from Pleasure Activism by amb). Something you used to believe about pleasure and desire that doesn’t serve you any more? (borrowed from we are not really strangers XXX deck) What does sober joy look like when we are talking about pleasure? -- This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space for your auditory pleasure.

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एकछिन धैर्य राख है…
Ep. 20
एकछिन धैर्य राख है…

Music is a source of pleasure and inspiration but what does the उतार चढाव of inspiration and pleasure look like, feel like, for a singer and songwriter? In this conversation SJ speaks with their friend Sajen who is a musician and a singer releasing their first song “Kaalpanik Fulbaari” tomorrow, Friday June 20th! The conversation takes us through Sajen’s journey of many becomings-- becoming a singer, a song writer, an artist. Listen to this heartfelt conversation about a journey of many discoveries. From UC को process loving team to all of you who listen and support us, we hope you enjoy this wonderful conversation. We hope it moves you to find joy in the different ways you love to create. Let us know where this conversation transports you to! Listen/Watch Sajen’s music on: https://www.youtube.com/@SajenShresthaOfficial -- This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space for your auditory pleasure.

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Inviting rage
Ep. 19
Inviting rage

The love for letters, discovering our favourite writers and sharing our collective rage and grief, we have come to realize pleasure is not a linear feeling, nor inspiration a one way street . Listen to Navin in conversation with raji as they talk about how words, poetry and literature inspire us. The conversation loiters into many tangents as घत लाग्दो conversations often do. Intentional गफिने प्रयास as you know UC को लक्ष नै हो। So here’s a conversation for you to engage with. Here’s to the love of tangents and intentional गफ! Let us know where this conversation transports you to! #utarchadhav #mentalhealthmatters #invitingrage #ilovereading #griefandpleasure -- This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space for your auditory pleasure.

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Language and the written word are powerful. Listen to a conversation between Sj and Akh, besties and co-conspirators coming together to talk about the dating scene, sharing ज्ञान that they have learned from experience which you will surely resonate with. As you listen, think about people in your life you can start these conversations with. Here at UC, in our own exploration of sex, intimacy, touch, consent we thought साथीहरुको साथ ले नै यो conversation अगाडि बढ्छ। Enjoy this heartfelt, funny conversation that centers letting in all sorts of pleasure and making sure shame and guilt never get an upperhand. Content Advisory: adult content, listener's discretion is advised. -- This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space for your auditory pleasure.

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सिकाईको अनुभव/अनुभवको सिकाई
Ep. 17Season 2
सिकाईको अनुभव/अनुभवको सिकाई

Listen to this fun, musical and inspiring conversation between Saru and Suneeta Regmi, senior advocate who has been part of the Utar Chadhav journey from the very very beginning! Our lives are multi-storied and we are transported to many possibilities of inspiration and pleasure when we come from a place of curiosity and tentativeness. What is revealed then is a knowing of what moves us, what helps us notice the little-little things that makes our life inspiring to reflect upon. As a facilitator, as a mother, teacher of law and whose comfort space is litigating in court, listen to Suneeta share her journey and Saru witnessing and reflecting back in what is a beautiful testament to the pleasure in reliving and learning from each other's experiences. -- This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space for your auditory pleasure.

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अलिकति फुरुनदाना types
Ep. 16Season 2
अलिकति फुरुनदाना types

गफ गाफको rehearsal गरौँ, नयाँ studio सँग familiarize हौँ भन्दै सुरु भएको संवाद तपाई माझ टक्र्याउँदै छौँ ! के के न हो यो शव्द chronobiopolitics बाट things your sex-ed teacher should have talked about but probably didn’t देखी talking about sex without making it sexual गर्दा खेरी निस्कने conversation to importance of basic respect to question “is separating art from artist valid?” to many more. हामीले यो ep.लाई समेट्न ठ्याकै शव्द भेटेनौँ त्यसैले राखिदियौँ, “अलिकति फुरुनदाना types”. Ep. सुन्दै गर्दा ओहो यो नाम त गज्जबै सुहाउँछ जस्तो लागे खबर गर्नुस् है। -- This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space to your earholes.

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Cool कि अनुकूल
Ep. 15Season 2
Cool कि अनुकूल

Often we are told that there is a right time for everything - a time to turn into an adult, a time to understand our sexuality, a time to mature into our desires, a time to figure out ourselves and our bodies, a time to grow up. The society we live in has decided a timeline in our life for when things are appropriate; a chronological timetable to live life the right way. But what happens when we challenge this notion? When we do not grow into who we are supposed to be right away? When do we take our time to learn our likes and dislikes? When we do not fall into place according to our age? When we want to forge a new path for ourselves? What happens when some of us do not abide by this unwritten rulebook? Join us as we contemplate various terminologies, concepts, conversations and phenomenologies from the societal manual of living and how it often crashes on our journey of pleasure and inspiration. -- This season we are diving into conversations on pleasure and inspiration. We are excited to show you the process of how different conversations become one complete episode. Join us as we bring to you raw snippets with a lot of ummm-hmmm you would otherwise not hear from our conversations, straight from our new studio space to your earholes.

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When I grow Up!
Ep. 14
When I grow Up!

dear Listeners, अमिट माया <3 From time to time from our Instagram handle we keep asking, “What are the topic you want to hear from us?” One of the buzzwords we hear every time is #Adulting. Adulting felt like a topic that we are also questioning time and again. When we started the conversation as part of podcast production, we had no idea where we would land. Hopping from a closed group conversation to asking questions to random people at Basantapur, reading memes to reading children's stories, and asking ourselves what is adulting. Here we came up with what we felt Adulting is. Listen to our 10th episode "When I grow Up!" now. Episode art for this episode is by our little friend Akshada, we asked them “What do you want to be when you are an adult?” Do write to us episode सुन्दा कस्तो अनुभव भयो भनेर। Love and Gratitude, उतार चढाव

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Cheers
Ep. 13Featured
Cheers

In this episode we talk about the role of alcohol in our lives. Whether we drink or are sober, stories about alcohol impact all our lives. Our intention here was to have a landing space to talk about these stories, some joyful, some funny and some sad. We had a lot of help from our friends in unpacking this topic, listening to each other and coming together to feel the उतारचढाव that often accompanies the journey when talking about alcohol. Listen with your loved ones and tell us how it felt and let's continue this conversation

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दिन पनि गाह्रो, लिन पनि गाह्रो
Ep. 12
दिन पनि गाह्रो, लिन पनि गाह्रो

“दिन पनि गाह्रो, लिन पनि गाह्रो OR the art of giving/receiving compliments.” Our quest of finding answers to the above statement led us to loiter on compliments. We are pretty sure this has been a hustle for you as well! How to give good compliments and how to more importantly gracefully receive and own compliments? We were curious about these questions at the beginning of this journey to understand more deeply our relationship with compliments. With time many of you joined us in this journey and told us compliments that make you feel happy, joyful, sad, irritated……… Guess we figured it out or did we? Listen to the episode to find out what makes a compliment reach marginal utility!

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Culture Shock
Ep. 11
Culture Shock

The paper planes in the drawing are to define we belong somewhere. We never know where the paper planes land though sometimes we decide where it should land. We decide and dream our lives to live in a certain way but we never know what comes forth as the time passes by. Everybody keeps running back and forth searching a place where they belong, their home. The paper planes flies to the direction of wind, likewise, human lives moves along with the flow of time - sometimes, uncertain and undecided”, says Yesung while tuning in.

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माया त माया हो****** सर्त लागु छैन
Ep. 10
माया त माया हो****** सर्त लागु छैन

June is Pride month. Pride Month is an entire month dedicated to uplifting LGBTQIA voices, celebrating LGBTQIA culture and supporting LGBTQIA rights. A month जहाँ entire year पर्दा पछाडी पारिएका stories and eventsबो लर्को लाग्छन् and त्यही लर्कोमा हामी पनि थपिएका छौँ। In this episode we talk about love. We hear a lot of coming out stories, the preparation, the anticipation, the hopes and the eventual aftermath - a story that sometimes ends in tears, and sometimes in hugs. Navigating through several experiences, we wanted to look at the other side. The loved one that the queer person is coming out to: Who are they? What social expectations might be causing them to react the way they do? And, are there resources that could support them to show up with love, and care? आखिर माया त माया होनी <3

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Online Spacesका उतार चढाव
Ep. 9
Online Spacesका उतार चढाव

Online spaces can bring us joy and connection when we feel sad and alone . We go on social media to share happiness with a wider audience. We laugh, we cry, we search, we play and so on. Going online and checking updates is often the first thing we do when we wake up, and last thing we do before bed. Simply put, online spaces are an extension of ourselves, our identities... In this episode we try to navigate through several experiences online; ranging from sadness to happiness from a mental health well being stance.

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अनि तपाई के गर्दै हुनुहुन्छ ?
Ep. 8
अनि तपाई के गर्दै हुनुहुन्छ ?

This time we are going from “बसी बसाई” to “अनि तपाई के गर्नु हुन्छ?” This episode is for everybody who has been thinking about how to maintain a work-life balance. We bring a lot of strengths to our work - whether that be our ability to balance differing perspectives, our ability to lead, our ability to see new solutions, our ability to deliver under pressure, our ability to energize those around us, and many many others. Even so, our work identity is only one of multiple identities we inhabit in this world. We have many other selves: as a family member, as a friend, as a citizen, as a member of chosen groups. The world tries to force us to focus on the work self over everything else. What are the ways in which we resist this (sometimes subtle, sometimes not so subtle) demand? We would love to hear back from you too <3. Write to us, rate us on different platforms, and shower us with comments and voice notes. Have a restful week 🌻🌿🍃🌱💛

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Rescuing JOY
Ep. 7
Rescuing JOY

Things that give us joy. Little things, big things. Stationery, barbecue, the first flower in spring, beautiful clothes…especially when given by a loved one. Sometimes, things that give us joy get buried in the mountain of things we end up collecting, and we find them one day when cleaning out our space. In our minds as well, things that give us joy get buried among the demands and stresses of daily living - this episode is a call to rescue the joy that lies waiting for us in and around us.

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Autismका कुराकानी-Part I
Ep. 6
Autismका कुराकानी-Part I

In the 1st part audio of two part series on “Autismका कुराकानी” you will find Meraki Chhen and Utar Chadhav conversing on Neurodiversity and adult diagnosis. Meraki Chhen is a space for the celebration of nuances of human lived experiences in terrains of gender, sexuality, neurotype and sociocultural pluralism. It aims at furthering discussions and expressions surrounding queerness, adult neurodivergence, asexuality and aromanticism, care and mental health, and embodied indigenous knowledge and practices. This first part tries to understand what neurodiversity and being diagnosed as autistic as an adult means in the context of Nepal. Content discussed in the episode serves as a snapshot of anthropologically evolving scenarios and understanding of the complexity of human nervous system and human diversity and in no way is synonymous to the medical understanding of Autism and Neurodivergence. Autism is a spectrum and all autistics do not present the same way, this is our attempt at understanding the nuances of the spectrum. Stay Tuned for the 2nd part which will be about lived experiences from folks.

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Autismका कुराकानी-Part II
Ep. 5
Autismका कुराकानी-Part II

Navigating autistic journey can be tricky. Sometimes there are roundabouts, other times there are days of JOYs. Here we have come up with a map that shows our journey after and during the course of diagnosis and exploration of autism. During April - Autism Awareness/Acceptance month on year 2024, Meraki Chhen along with Utar Chadhav got together in an attempt to deepen the understanding of Autism in Adulthood. This is our follow-up 2nd episode on autism. What have been some helpful know-hows or resources in your autistic joy-rney? Listen to Part I here: https://www.utarchadhav.com/Adult-Diagnosis-Part-I

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Break Ups
Ep. 4
Break Ups

Break ups are difficult, yet there are no spaces where what we feel is validated. Here at Utar Chadhav, we are trying to create a little more breathing space to help us navigate the multiple facets of the experience of #breakups . ब्रेक अप नै हुँदैन भन्ने परिपाटीको नेपाली समाजको शव्दकोषमा पनि ब्रेक अपको वास्तविक नेपाली शव्द नै छैन। कुरा गरिनु पर्छ भन्ने विश्वासले हामीले हाम्रो पोडकास्टको शुरुवात ब्रेकअप एपिसोडबाट गर्यौँ।

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लेख्दै गर्नु ल!
Ep. 3
लेख्दै गर्नु ल!

पत्रका कथा, शव्दका कथा, कागजका कथा, कलमका कथा, मित्रताका कथा यसपालिको episode is an ode to letters. Thank you for making our expressions easier and intimate through paper and pen. This is our love letter to you and to the art of letter writing. सुन्नुस ल! #LetterReceivingAndGiving #ThingsICouldNeverSayOutLoud #PenOnPaper

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जय भोली "The Procrastination Episode"
Ep. 1
जय भोली "The Procrastination Episode"

Procrastination has many of us in its grip. Looking for solutions, we end up in rabbit holes - reading up about 5 ways to beat procrastination, the secret recipe to become productive and so on. For many of us, these lists become a bigger source of distress, when these “cures” do not work, and they start to feel like nothing can help them. Have you ever imagined what your procrastination would look like? Have you talked about your procrastination? Wouldn’t you love the opportunity to rant/vent to your procrastination? That’s exactly what we decided to do for this episode. We decided to confront procrastination, and solve its riddle, once and for all. Let’s hear, what does it have to say? Listen to our 3rd episode now wherever you get your podcasts. Let us know how you feel listening to this episode. भोलीवादले हामीलाई गाँजेको छ। नचाहाँदा नचाहँदै हामी यस्को भुमरीमा यसरी पर्यौ कि अब यसबाट छुटकारा पाउन इन्टरनेटमा पाइने फण्डाहर पनि काम लाग्दैनन्।यही गार्हो विषयलाई भोलीवाद कै नजरबाट हेर्दा केही भिन्नता पाइएला त भनेर हामी उसैसँग कुरा गर्न थाल्यौँ। मन मनै जय भोली भन्नोस् र भोलीवाद आफैबाट सुनौँस्। तेस्रो एपिसोड तपाईंले विभिन्न पोडकास्ट प्लाटफर्ममा सुन्न सक्नुहुन्छ। तपाइँलाई एपिसोड सुनेर कस्तो लाग्यो हामीलाई थाहा दिनुहोस्।

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